Tuesday, October 14, 2014

In Ricordo - In Memory

Two weeks ago I sat in front of a blank page and wondered what to write - do I go over the reason for my absence or not? I eventually decided to concentrate on the positive and the future.

30 minutes is all it took to change everything.

The time elapsed between two phone calls. One misheard word - a sigh of relief and then a clarification. My mother has passed away.

Within hours we are booked on a flight that leaves the next day - half a world away, we must wait.

I cannot talk, it is too difficult. I am so thankful to have my husband - he is my voice. He is doing the things that I cannot, even though I know he is grieving. My mother is right - we are very blessed to have him in our lives.

One week has passed since that call and I still cannot believe it.

The last 3 months I have learnt so much about my parents, my regret is that there was still so much to discover. I assumed I had time, I had no inkling that this was not the case.

The hardest days are yet to come but I will not think of them, I will focus on the good memories.

I will be taking a break from blogging, there are conversations we need to have.

I won’t be abandoning this site - the very reason I can cook is because of my mother. Everything I know is because of her. This blog is filled with her wonderful recipes and when the time is right, I will blog again.

Thank you to my blogging friends and readers for the concern you have shown over the last few years and months - your kind words, thoughts and prayers have meant so much.

I think it is fitting to finish this post with one of my mother’s recipes - a brilliant dish full of good memories.

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Torta Meringata con Mele - Apple Tart with Meringue

6 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    There is never enough time.

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  2. I'm sorry that you're experiencing such difficult times. All the best for your time away from blogging.

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  3. I hope you will take whatever time you need. Writing needs inspiration and that time will come again. We will look forward to hearing from you -- cathy

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  4. I'm so sorry! I know what it means...I give you a big hug
    lucia

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  5. I'm really sorry for your loss. Your mom will always be with you in your thoughts and also in her recipes, unfornunately I know that this means.
    Hugs,
    Cristina

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